Dear Hermana Olsen (and all my kids),
As you know, we are very short on water. We have not had a good snow. Isaac can tell you that there is only a foot on Skyline as he drove his car up to see it. So my fast and continued prayers are for snow. Snow pack in the mountains, snow in the valleys, rain in April, May, and June if necessary. We are not praying for moisture, as that is too general. We don't just need dew on the grass; we need to replenish our reservoirs and feed our trees. I have daffodils about an inch or more above the ground. I imagine Peter is watching his trees and water in general. Now that we have Lake Powell plans, we need water there too. Scott said yesterday that they will close the ramp in March due to low water until spring runoff starts. (runoff from where?) Obviously, we need rain and snow. We need lots of water.
All this water on my mind, we show up fasting to sacrament meeting and are told the church doesn't have water. No flushing toilets, no sinks to wash hands, and no water for the sacrament. We find someone with a key to the city building, and they go get water from there for the sacrament. Bishop Hintze mentions the issue and references the living water. Here we are in a church with a beautiful mural of the woman at the well. Jesus taught her about living water. The story says she left her pot behind to share the good news that Jesus had just taught her.
We enjoy the sacrament, and it is announced that the building has water again. We are all grateful. It is testimony meeting, and some of us are still pondering water. I have also been thinking about faith.
I am praying for water. It is a righteous desire and a real need. It could start snowing that day or the next. My phone says clear skies, but I believe that could change. I know many are praying for snow. I know some of us are wondering if there are things we need to repent of to open the windows of heaven.
The church normally has water. Today, it did not have water when we needed it. We adjusted and made do. It worked out, eventually. My prayers are like that. I have faith. I ask in faith, believing. But my faith can not be that I will receive snow. My faith is not in my ability to control the weather. My faith is in God. My faith says that I have a loving Father in Heaven whom I pray to; I can ask with faith, and I can trust that He will bless me. I can trust that it is in his timing and wisdom. He will bring snow, eventually. In the meantime, I/we may have to make adjustments, find other ways to move forward, and believe that, for now, His answers look different from what I would prefer. The adventure begins. I may need to look at things differently, figure out what I might be able to learn along the way, and possibly how we can work together as a community to care for each other. Or we might get lots of snow over the next couple of months and adjust to shoveling, dressing warmer, driving less and more carefully, preparing to enjoy a big garden, lots of lawn mowing, and plan some lake fun.
Water is essential to all living things. It is such a huge and basic need. Water has so many lessons to teach me. So grateful that on one simply fast Sunday, I got to ponder, wonder, evaluate, explore, and determine how faith works. What, why, or who do I have faith in? How do I exercise faith? How might I recognize the answers to my faithful petitions? How do I take the next step in strengthening my faith?
For now, I will keep praying for snow, keep repenting, keep watching the skies, and hoping. I believe in living water. That is the one I want to focus on. If my pot is empty, that's okay because I have the living water. I need not thirst.
As for the rest of my life in Manti, it's good. We are healthy and active, and we are planning to start our kitchen remodel. I still feel like there are some details I would like to figure out. I want to make sure the kitchen meets my needs. Is there a place for glasses? Do I have enough storage? Will the pantry be big enough for the counter and shelves I want? How should we do the windows? What should we do to finish the outside? How could we do a walk around to connect the decks? How should we do the ceiling? Beadboard and beams? Is there a fun way to do the lighting that isn't just cans? How will we add on to the floor, and what about the transition to the pantry? Should I do the island a different color, or is that just a trend? Just to name a few.
I am continuing to sort and de-junk, and it feels so good. I won't do our room or closet (but it could use it). One of the hardest to face is the storage room under the porch. How many decorations, frames, emergency supplies, and camping stuff do I need to keep? At least it keeps me busy, and I feel productive each time a space gets organized.
I am sure hoping you (all or any of you) write this week. I love hearing from you. Talking is wonderful, but when we write, we think and share differently. I appreciate both.
I love you. I pray for you. I am proud of you. Be good, stay true, love God, and let his love guide you. We have stake conference next week, and then I will be preparing for teaching Noah in Sunday School. If you have any insights, I am grateful.
Love always,
Mom
PS We enjoyed driving the Mustang with the top down this week, working in the yard, and just sitting on the grass.